How long has he been like this?”
“Two days now, sir.”
“My son, oh my son!”
The voices seemed to be coming to me from far off. I opened
my eyes and saw that I was lying down in a comfortable bed.
The air conditioning was soothing to my skin and the television
was on with a football match showing. The fluorescent light
from the ceiling was blinding my eyes and I winced as my
pupils constricted to accommodate the bright surroundings. I
recognized the pictures in my room and I sighed with relief.
What a nightmare! So I had been dreaming the whole thing all
along? I turned to my side and saw Nina still sleeping on the
bed beside me. Sweet, sexy, adorable Nina, my personal
angel. Her beautiful skin shone smoothly in the fluorescent
light. I imagined her chest moving gently with her breathing
and turned, smiling towards her…
But she wasn’t breathing. She looked cold, unmovable, still as,
as… I couldn’t think it. Suddenly my heart started beating hard
against my chest.
“Nina? Nina?” I called out, getting more panicked by the
minute. I shook her hard but she didn’t respond. I wanted to
turn her over, but I was suddenly too afraid to look at her face.
Her beautiful face, what if I looked and it wasn’t beautiful
anymore? But curiosity got the better of me and I turned her
on her back.
Her face was gone, nothing. Nothing was there just a blank
mass of flesh. I tried jumping out of the bed and suddenly
chains from nowhere wrapped themselves around my hands
and feet. I screamed louder and then the door to the room
opened and I saw myself, myself as a child, looking in and
“You are having a nightmare, you .” My child self said
scornfully. “Wake up!”
I screamed and jumped up- and I was out of the nightare only
to find y parents rushing towards me, worry all over their
“Chukwudi, my son, what happened?”
I looked around me confused and saw that I was in the same
room I mistook for mine in the dream. Only that there was a
nurse beside me and my hands and feet had been chained to
the bed. Both my parents were standing beside me, looking
very worried, and behind them stood – Mr A****! He looked
even more concerned than my parents and for a moment I
thought I had indeed been dreaming. And then I caught him
smiling wickedly as his eyes met mine.
I said “Mum, dad, get away from this b—–d! He is evil!”
But what came out of my mouth was:
“Skelewu, Jump the bridge! Wind your waist and dance for
My parents gasped, Mr A**** shook his head sadly. I was
shocked! Shocked beyond words. What happened? I tried
“ Dad? ”
My mum started crying. I stopped talking and looked at her. I
tried smiling to encourage her but found myself grinning
maniacally instead. I knew what was happening but they
didn’t. and I saw my mother hold my father and weep for her
son. And I looked at Mr A**** who, standing behind them, was
watching me with a hidden smile. And there and then I swore
revenge. It would be absolute and merciless. I didn’t know how
I would get out of this but I intended to do so with every fibre
of my being.
My father was talking. “So that’s how you found him?”
“Er, Yes sir.” Mr. A**** replied humbly. “I had dropped him off
on Sunday and came back to my daughter in law’s place. He
even sent her a text message a few hours later saying he was
going to town to buy something to eat. The next thing we
knew he called and started shouting that some men were
chasing him and that he had bolted himself in his house. I went
along with my daughter-in-law to his place with a few
policemen only to meet him like this. They later found a few
wraps of Indian hemp on his table, both used and unused. The
doctor said it is common for hemp smokers to start
hallucinating especially when they have been taking it for a
I don’t smoke hemp ! I shouted
“E don tay since I dey take igbo naa…!” I heard myself say.
“Our son, a hemp smoker?!” my mum interjected. “I don’t
“Eees very possible ma.” The young nurse by my side had
decided to enter the conversation. “We dey see them plenty
for this side o. Dey go dey look responsible meanwhile…”
“Thank you nurse”. My father said grimly. “We’ll take care of
him from here. Thank you Mr A****, you have been very kind,
paying all his medical bills…”
Mr A**** nodded quietly. “Its no trouble. I liked him fro the first
moment I saw him, his charisma, his intelligence. He reminded
me of myself when I was younger. It’s a pity he went into
drugs. I am sure the doctor will be able to do something for
him. My daughter in law says she will come by later to see
him. Maybe I’ll drop her off before returning to my hotel.”
“Thanks again sir” my mum said and he smiled and left. The
nurse adjusted the drip on my arm and left as well. As soon as
they left my mum went to my side and sat down close to me.
“Chuks, what happened?”
I opened my mouth to answer but instead spat on her face.
She withdrew and cleaned it off and looked at her husband.
“Can he really go mad?” she said, looking more alarmed than
ever. “Do you think he saw…something he shouldn’t have
My father was quiet. He seemed to be deep in thought. My
mother had to get up and go to him and physically shake him
before he broke out of his reverie.
“What is it, woman?!” he asked angrily.
“What can you be thinking of at a time like this?” my mum said
getting hysterical. “Our son is lying here, not his normal self
and you are silent? What do we do?”
“First of all, calm down.” My father had become the man I
knew. I could see him building inner strength, becoming a rock
of stability and support. Hopefully he would know what to do.
My mum, however was still on the verge of a massive
hysteria. “I won’t calm down o. where is the doctor? How can
he have been here for two days and the doctor has seen him
only once? When did our son start taking hemp?
My dad stared at her with fiery eyes and she finally kept quiet.
His look was altogether menacing and for a moment I thought
he was going to shout down the place. His voice however
“My son already sees visions, he would never resort to drugs
that would make him hallucinate even more. You know chuks
better than that! With all the stress he has gone through trying
to adjust and appear normal, is it now he would resort to
drugs for comfort?
My mother saw the sense in that and nodded quietly in
“secondly, we must tell the doctor or nurse immediately to
stop that man from coming to visit chuks. I didn’t like him at
“But why?” mum said, “he seemed so nice.”
“Too nice,” my father retorted. “how long has he known
chuks? ‘he reminded me of myself when I was young…’
rubbish! Make sure he doesn’t come near here again!”
“Yes dear,” my mum said.
“Now please, there is something I want to try but I’ll need you
to stand outside and let nobody interrupt us.
Her eyes widened. “You mean, you want to call…”
“Yes.” He said. “I don’t see what else we can do. It may have
been too long and it may not work but I have to try.”
My mother’s eyes filled with hope. I watched her and inwards
I smiled. My dad had always been the one to hold unto in
times of crises. My mum and I adored him so much although
we never told him to his face, lest he become too full of
himself. A foolish reason, I thought now, as I watched,
trapped, a prisoner in my own body, as my mother left the
room and my father came to the foot of the bed.
“ I love you, dad. ” I said.
“Comot for here, b—–d!” I spoke.
“Its all right chukudi, don’t say anymore.” He said. He sighed
deeply and was quiet for a while before he started to speak:
“When you were little, your mum tried to hide your peculiarities
from me. Funny woman, how won’t I know if my only son is
strange? I found out after a while and at first pretended I didn’t
know. Then I started getting angry and thought I could force it
out of you, especially when you told your mum about the
feelings her friend and I shared, even though you didn’t know
what you were doing at the time. I was so blinded by my lust,
anger and selfishness I thought I could beat it out of you. So
one day when I was at home with you and your mother went to
work, I went to the back of the house and cut a big cane. I said
I would flog you mercilessly and warn you never to repeat
anything you saw again. The strange thing was that you
showed no signs of fear even as I raised the whip. I flogged
and flogged you and you uttered not a word. I was still too
angry to notice the evil I was doing so I threw the whip away
and pulled my belt. When the head of the belt hit you, you
screamed and ran back. I chased after you with the belt and
hit you again. You had nowhere else to run and so you
grabbed the belt. I was about pulling it out of your hands when
you screamed again.”
My father paused for a moment, as if he was about to expose
a big secret whose weight had burdened him for years. I
watched him in silence.
“ I don’t know what you did that day, but I found something
escaping my body. It was like a disgusting, ugly looking
monkey with a big manhood. I saw it with my own, normal
eyes, it wriggled and squirmed about on the ground for a short
while, then lay still, dead. And then it disappeared. I
immediately lost all feelings for your mother’s friend. I didn’t
even understand why I had been so angry with you. I dropped
to my knees and begged you for forgiveness and you held my
hands with yours which had swollen from my whipping. And
you smiled and told me that you saw when your mother’s
friend had put it on me, that it had been sitting on my shoulder
the whole time.”
I opened my eyes wide in amazement. I had done that as a
child? I could do that? How come I didn’t remember?
“i told you then that you were stronger than me and you said
you would do it for me anytime I called you Chukwudi the
stronger. That you liked the way the name sounded. Chukwudi
the Stronger! And I used it there and then. I selfishly asked you
to remove any other thing from me, anything that was
hindering my way to greatness.” He was crying now.
“Chukwudi the stronger! I made you remove as many
obstacles from my path and your mother’s that day. That was
the day things really began to change, the day things started
to get better, but it had an effect on you. You slept throughout
the next day and when you finally awoke, you had no
recollection of the incident. You seemed so stressed out, so
overworked, so drained . Your mother and I decided we would
never use you for such selfish purposes again. We didn’t know
how it would affect your health. And so we kept it a secret
between us. And a secret it has remained for all these years,
even from you. It was after then we started hearing you talk of
Pachios, whom you called your guardian angel. I personally
felt that a higher power had sent him to you to protect you until
you could fend for yourself. And since he allowed this, this
thing happen to you, I believe your time has come for you to
do just that.”
I was stunned. I had never heard this part of my history
before. And then I realized it. When I was still a child Pachios
had always been there to protect me from harm. The odd
scrape there, the adventurous escapade there. I remember
when I was in primary school and some dogs chased after a
group of us boys as we ran home from school. Each and every
one of those eleven boys had been chased down or bitten by
the dogs, except me. They simply behaved as if I wasn’t there.
I knew Pachios had been covering me with his wings. And the
scar I had gotten on my wrist when escaping from school…I
had actually fallen right unto the barbed wire. It was because I
stretched out my hands as I fell that I had any injury at all.
Pachios had been there to catch me. And since I had come to
Lagos Pachios’ visits had become less and less frequent. But
surely this was an emergency? Where was he? Did he expect
me to do this on my own?
My father had pulled himself up to his full height and he had
stopped crying. His voice took an authoritarian tone and he set
his face firm as a rock and spoke loudly:
Chukwudi the stronger!
Are you asleep?
Listen to the voice of your father, the voice of the one who calls
Chukwudi the stronger!
Are your eyes still heavy?
Awake from your slumber and vanquish those who would make
you a mockery.
CHUKWUDI THE STRONGER! RISE!
At first nothing happened. I felt silly, watching him there
looking at me, looking at me almost the same way Mr A****
had done back in the large, dark room. What did he want me
to do? And then…I felt myself fall. I was falling deep into my
own body as if my body itself was a huge room and I was
dropping right down to the centre. I shouted but no sound
came out and I continued to fall, until I landed on a firm
surface. My landing was gentle despite haven fallen for a long
time. I stayed on the ground for a while and looked around me.
I was in an empty room. There was a source of light coming
from above but I couldn’t pinpoint the exact location. As I
walked around I realized the room was no longer empty. Lying
on the floor, sleeping peacefully, was a small boy of about six
years. I knew who he was before I even approached him. In
fact this room for some reason appeared very familiar, like I
had lived in it my whole life. I went over to the boy and shook
him but he mumbled something and went back to sleep.
“Wake up!” I said. “it’s time for you to wake up!”
He turned around sleepily to face me and I recognized my
younger self, the one I had seen in my nightmare earlier that
day. He yawned and mumbled some more then turned to go
back to sleep. I shook him again.
“You again? What is it?” he asked sleepily.
“I need your help,” I said. “Someone put a lunacy creature on
“Well, get rid of it,” he said, stubbornly refusing to open his
“I can’t,” I said. “I don’t know how and Pachios isn’t around to
help me anymore.”
“Pachios is gone?” he said opening his eyes and sitting up. He
suddenly smiled. “So does that mean I am in charge now?”
“Yes it does.” I said feeling a bit funny talking to myself. “ I am
He stood up and stretched about a bit. It really seemed he had
been sleeping for a long time. Then he said “This is going to be
so much fun! You are not a strict kind of adult are you?”
“Get me out of this predicament, and we’ll see.” I said. “Get
me out, Chukwudi the stronger!”
He grinned then, and bellowed at the top of his lungs, “ WHO
DARES TO SIT ON MY HEAD?! ” and I heard a trembling from
above and the creature attached to my head screeched in
Chukwudi the younger, the stronger , looked at me, still
grinning. “Let’s go back up. I have a feeling you are going to
enjoy this as much as I am!”